Thursday, April 14, 2011

Bull Tossing

I believe, now more than ever, that we have the ability to impact our own lives simply by having the right attitude. We can have a pity party, or take the bull by the horns and decide to toss it around a bit. While I cannot currently, physically toss the bull around, I mentally can. And that bull is flying far.

I have this vision of a cartoon bull flying through the air, with this perplexed look on his face, wondering what happened. Unfortunately I can't find the appropriate image to share. Little did he know that I had picked him up by the horn, spun him around in the air above me, and tossed him aside. I will replay this vision over and over in my head, as a reminder to stay positive, take the bull by the horns, and toss it aside.

I know that there will be good days and bad days. I am not unrealistic. But I also know that I can control how I approach each day, with grace, determination, and grit, and occasional embarrassment. Yesterday was embarrassment – don’t ask! Today is determination and bull-tossing!

Doctor’s appointments start this week – weeks of follow up. I get to see my surgeon, and hopefully will get cleared to do a little more than walk. Although walking is tiring in itself after what I have just been through. I was going to do Pat’s Run this weekend, but that has now changed. I don’t know if I could walk the 4.2 miles, at least not right now. So then it will have to be next year’s run… And I will run.

I am truly blessed by being surrounded by loved ones. They will help me keep this perspective, this I am sure. I am equally blessed to be in the thoughts of so many. Thank you. You continue to inspire me and motivate me.

Here’s to bull tossing!!!!


Ilana said...

amen. you rock, and that grace, determination & grit is contagious. <3 it, & thank you!

Anne said...

Ferinand the bull. One of my favorite childhood books. Toss that bull to the corner and in Bono's words Walk On Lauriel.

ken said...

Sending good thoughts! Let me know if there's anything I can do, now or once you're back up to speed. Stay strong!

eileen said...

L. I love you.

And fuck the bull.